EK...

Emily Klair is now 10 and I can not believe how fast she is growing up. She has had a rough year but she is such a tough little girl. She is struggling a bit in school, and her seizures have been out of control. At one point she was on 3 different meds. It was like living with a walking breathing real life zombie. She had no emotions, no personality, she didn't care about anything and all she did was sleep. Sleep and sleep and sleep.

In October we were admitted to LeBohenuer hospital in Memphis for another video EEG. She is stubborn,  EK did not have any seizures that week...Nothing NADA!! it was not a wasted trip though. We have found a wonderful Dr. that we love!!! He is so helpful, caring and not about just throwing meds at her.

She has a cast on her foot as I type, haha she is one clumsy girl! She has broken her growth plate in her ankle and severely sprained her ankle. In true pretty princess fashion she picked a pink cast and she is rocking it like a diva.Lets see for those that keep count, she has broken her wrist, her shoulder and now this ankle. Might have to look into getting a bubble for her, seriously!!

Emily Klair does not want people to look at her... (very much reminds me of her aunt Andie in this regard) so she has decided to not play softball, basketball, or soccer. I have to say I am secretly sad about the softball, but she would rather try gymnastics again. I am ok with that as long as she does something. I have convinced her to join the puppet team at church this year and she is doing great. I have always said she needs to do something with acting/drama. Not sure how that would work with the whole no body look at me thing? haha She definitely has a knack for the drama.

She has friends down the street that she loves to go play with and I love that she loves to be outside rain or shine. She is so imaginative, creative, loving, kind, sweet, beautiful, funny, shy, loud, and sneaky. She is a one of a kind girl, and I hope she keeps her personality, she is something special.

Emily Klair I love you so much and am thankful I get to be your mother. You are beautiful inside and out....don't ever doubt that!

Crazy Cousin Fun = Great Gift

 

 This fall my sister's family and our family got together on a Sunday afternoon to take some pictures of the grand kids for one of my parents Christmas gift.

That day was so much fun...the kids played, laughed, ran, got stung by bees (ok not so fun but Karlie was a trooper) and just had a great time together.

Tyler loves Anderson and I am pretty sure Anderson loves Tyler. He says his name and it was one of the sweetest things ever when he started saying it...he would yell "Yler golf" or he would point to what he wanted him to do and Yler would do it. They are great buds!

Not sure that the girls can get anymore drama then they are but it is what makes them so much fun to listen to and watch as they play and interact. 

Karlie, Emily Klair, and Kinsley are all girl, but don't let that fool you, when they are playing they love to get dirty, and are just as rough as the boys!


You can imagine how hard it was to get all five kids looking and smiling at the same time. It was quite the scene..me and Andie both shooting our cameras 100 mph with Warren and Jamie jumping up and down, trying to get smiles and laughs all around. Some great times were definitely had that day...



 We wrote a story and read it as the kids brought out each picture...it was a silly story with fun family jokes and memories....I think Andie did a great job of hanging it..I hope mom and dad enjoy the pictures as much as we enjoyed taking them!

Time to dust off the ole blog...

It has been a very long time since I have blogged. Almost a year, and what a year it has been. So much has happened. I feel like this last year has went in slow motion and fast forward all at once. There is so much to catch up on, I don't know where to begin?

From my first post till now I have loved to blog. I love the therapy of it, I love to look back and see where I have grown or where I still need some work. I can look back and see how much my children have accomplished or how sweet they were ( come on now they are pre-teens there is nothing sweet about that...haha) or some of our fun, and how crazy our life can be sometimes.

Tyler and Emily Klair are now 12 yrs and 10 yrs old. I know I know, crazy town isn't it!!! When did I get old enough to have kids that age?  They were just in diapers yesterday, right? They are both great kids and I need to do an update post on each of them, and I will soon. 

I am rambling, I do that when I get nervous. I shouldn't be nervous this is a blog. It is my blog I can say what I want, tell how I am feeling, write down my inner most thoughts....Hear me when I say this I am nervous!! I am scared!! I am angry!! I am sad!! I am frustrated!! I am positive!! I am happy!! I am appreciative!! I am ?? I don't know what I am? NUMB maybe?? Shocked?? Confused?? Struggling?? overwhelmed?? I AM ALL OF THESE THINGS and more!

I put a smile on my face and I try to say positive things. I try to tell myself it is all going to be ok. I remind myself that God is in control. I have faith and I know he is bigger then any problem we face. He knows all our struggles, our sins and even our fears. I tell my children these things, and I believe that all of this is true. Here is where I am going to get real for a minute. I do believe these things to be true, BUT I would be lying to myself if I didn't also say that right now my inner core of faith is shaken. I know what you are thinking how can I even say that? I have seen God work in so many ways in my own life and others.  I can say that because right now my heart is breaking. I have every emotion you can have running through me. I am human. I am struggling to wrap my brain around everything.

I really wanted this first post back to be positive. Full of encouragement, and I sat down with that intention. Please understand that this post was written by someone who loves their whole family very much, someone who aches when they ache, someone who is scared for the future, someone who feels helpless, and someone who would take it all away if she could. I pray that tomorrow brings a more positive attitude, but for tonight this is me.  

If you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything...

I have been very hesitate on writing on my blog lately. There are many reasons for this but the main one is I am trying to be very positive, trying to have a great attitude, trying to be so supportive and most of all I am still not sure how I am feeling about this whole situation.

The thing is I have been taught so much in the month and half since my sister was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer.  I always knew my sister was amazing, I have always been one of her biggest fans.  She is not only a wonderful sister, but a wonderful mother, aunt, friend and now she is some one I look up to more and more everyday!

I have seen so much courage in her, so much faith, so much positivity that I am blown away.

I need to be that way, I need to have more faith, and more courage, and I need to be more like her.

I am going to be honest here for a minute...

This is hard and I mean really hard to watch!! I don't like seeing her hurt, or be sick.  I don't like to see little Anderson and wonder what is going on his little mind, does he know things have been a bit different for a little while???  I do not like that Kinsley and Karlie know that the words cancer, chemo, and mastectomy exist and hate even more that they know what they mean. I hate to watch my mother and father, they are so worried about her, as we all are but its different when its your kid...now that I am a mother I understand their worry and that is hard to watch!!

This is part of why I have not wrote anything yet, because we are just by standers, we can not do anything to really help her with this fight. Sure we can be supportive, we can watch the kids,we can cook, we can clean, we can drive her to and from appts, we can sit with her when she is sick, wash hair and fix wigs, lift her up when she is having a bad day, but we can not take the pain away we can not make this go away...and that stinks!! IT is soo hard, I can not put into words how much that stinks!
I have not said anything because I have nothing nice to say about this whole situation...until now.

My sister is amazing!! She is strong, determined and the biggest role model to me. Her faith and courageous attitude is catching and I hope to catch some of it even if it is just a small portion. I knew she was loved by us, but to see how many she is loved by and how many she affects in a positive way daily is overwhelming.  We are all feeling the love from the friends, co workers, and strangers and that is a wonderful feeling.

It is out of this world how many cards she gets a day, how many people want to help in some way, and how much love she has felt from the beginning.  The words THANK YOU do not seem like enough!

Andie, you keep that positive attitude, you keep that courageous spirit, and most off all you keep your amazing faith. you keep showing me and others what true strength really looks like...like you said to me the day you found out about this.." this cancer did not know who it was messing with.." trust me it sure did not!!!

Proverbs 31: 25

Long time.....

No excuses...I have no excuses!! I have just been the biggest slacker ever!!

There is so much to catch up on. 

Lets start with the kids...Tyler is in 5th grade at a new school, and doing really well.  He is having fun playing football, soccer and basketball.  He has started a new medicine and is doing great with seizures and headaches.  I can not believe how old he is, and how grown up he acts! He is really growing into a fine young man.

Emily Klair...is in 3rd grade and is such a sweet little girl.  She is playing basketball for the first time and she is really enjoying it.  We have just got her on an IEP at school, she is struggling a bit and we are trying to figure out how she learns and what she needs to reach her full potential. She is growing up so fast!!

Warren and I just celebrated our 15 year anniversary...ok well we haven't got to celebrate yet because I had knee surgery that day. I know right..just how you want to spend your anniversary.  I am doing well and it is no where near as painful as my shoulder surgery from last year. We are both still working and enjoying being parents.

I really want to get back to blogging again, and hope to, its just that we are always on the go.  I promise you there are days we leave the house before 8 am and do not get home till after 8 pm...

again no excuses just saying!!!

SUMMERTIME.....

We at the Robinson house have been so busy...I have alot to catch ya'll up on but for right now I am just going to leave you all with some (trust me when I say I have a ton o'pics) great pictures of what we have been up too..and I promise to tell some wonderful stories to go with these pictures!!!

a world all it's own....

This is one of EK's favorite shirts, I think she would wear it everyday if I let her. 

It maybe just a t-shirt with a witty saying on it BUT as much as I hate to admit it, it rings true!

I was not born a southern girl but I can say I am a true southern girl through and through,

SOUTHERN GIRLS ROCK!!!!!!