jump rope video..

ok so my video is not cooperating so if you click on this http://bamaboog.blogspot.com that should take you to one of our friends and Tyler's good friend Dawson's mom's blog..whew that was a mouth full I know..anywho friends of ours that got some good highlights of all the performances...Tyler is in some if it...bouncy hair...hope you enjoy!! it is quite fun to watch them..they are pretty talented at this jumping rope stuff!!

remember when 2.....

Lets see where did I leave off, oh yeah I was just getting back from the operating room and the nurses were there..one was checking my temperature, one was readjusting my blood pressure cuff, and two were in the corner of the room talking to each other..I couldn't clearly hear what they were saying but I knew it was about me,and my baby. I asked where is my baby and husband, and they replied "you are going to be just fine, you did great back there."...hmm thank you very much but I asked about my baby not me??? I was about to say this outloud when Warren walked in...lets just say if he had let off a stink bomb those nurses would not have left any faster, closing the door behind them. At this point I must back up and tell you about something that happened on the way to the hospital that morning...I took Warren's hand in the car and said in a very serious tone " If you have to choose me or the baby..pick the baby...if it is life and death, or something like leaving me because he has to be taken somewhere, whatever it is choose the baby, I will be fine." not sure why I did it we were not expecting there to be a problem, but I said it and I meant it!!! Warren walks over to my bed and holds my hand, ask me how I am doing, and then proceeds to tell me that Tyler has a small hole in his back and that they are wanting to transfer him to the NICU at Vanderbilt, by ambulance, he says that he may never walk, he may not have the use of anything from the neck down, but that right now he is moving away in the nursery because they have him all wrapped in gauze (he didn't like it all over him), because some spina bidifa babies are allergic to latex..and they need to cover the hole up in case it is leaking spinal fluid. He then went on to tell me about some of the test and things that were going to be happening when the pediatrician came in,followed by my doctor. I can honestly say that I do not remember much about what they said...and I have a couple theories on that....one I was soo drugged up, I could barely keep my eyes open, two the first thing they said was just because he is moving his arm and legs now does not mean that he will continue to...at that point all I remember is squeezing Warrens hand and crying uncontrollably,and closing my eyes. I still had not held him yet, I still had not even touched him yet. I wanted my baby, I was exhausted, wore out, and in pain...and I wanted my baby! I was moved to a regular room and was told that the ambulance was there to get him, I still had not held him. I asked to hold him, to see him, to smell him, to love on him. I kept getting the answer "in a minute he is still being checked out." They wheeled him into the room in the incubator that he was to travel to Vanderbilt in and they placed him in my arms...and I was over come with emotions. I cried, and cried, I tried to look at him, soak him in, love him, I wanted to see him move, I wanted to see those big brown (his eyes were never blue..he came out with the prettiest brown eyes ever!) eyes that had looked at me over that curtain, but all I could do was cry and say over and over I am sorry I did this too you, I am sorry I did this too you, I am sorry I did this too you, over and over. I got to hold him..umm all of about 5 minutes with everyone looking at and watching me including the ambulance drivers..still wish I had sent everyone out of the room and had I been in a better less drugged state of mind I would have! Because the first moment I got to hold my son was not perfect, was no where close to perfect...it was rushed, sad, and not a tender moment like I had planned and desperately waited for. They took him from me, and left for a hospital an hour away. Warren's parents left and followed the ambulance up there, my dad left to take my siblings home because it was so late, my sister was driving Warren up to Vandy(she had taken a day off college..and had to be back at TN Tech early the next morning...remember this is after midnight by now)...my mom wanted to go with them...but I lost it when they took him and everyone left to watch him be put in the ambulance...and for the first time in a long time all I wanted was my mommy!!! So she stayed behind to help me, I don't think she will ever know how much that meant to me. I think that night I was awake more then asleep even though I was very drugged up, they kept giving me pain medicine but I was determined to get up and moving, because the faster I could get up the faster they would let me go so I could go be with my baby and be there during all those test, and in case he needed surgery, I just wanted to be with my baby. This is really a long story..and I hate to rush it, so I think I will close with me getting up and walking before I needed to, and sitting up waiting on my dr. to make rounds that next morning so I could beg him to let me go....

remember when.....

Tyler is doing speech for Lads 2 Leaders, and he has decided he wants to talk about his birth story. I told him that would be a great idea, the theme for this years convention is Faith is the Victory ...Hebrews. I am loving that he choose this topic because it has given me a real opportunity to "remember when" that day was such a blur to me, and in all honesty I do not think that I let myself remember everything about that day. Since working on this speech I feel all the emotions of that day just like it happened yesterday. So I thought I would blog about that day, if for nothing else just to help me "remember when"... First off, Tyler was such a blessing in more ways then you can even imagine. After losing 3 babies in one year, we were told we probably could not have children of our own. I was devastated all I have ever wanted is to be a mother...my senior prophecy in high school was that I would be a mother of 8 children!! can you imagine 8??? haha...shhh don't tell anyone but I so would love to have more... So needless to say that finding out we were pregnant with Tyler was not exactly a good thing..I knew I could never carry a baby to full term, I was angry,scared, and really confused on why God would allow me to go through another heartbreaking loss. As the pregnancy progressed it became a real possibility that Warren and I were going to be parents...we were thrilled, scared to death but THRILLED beyond measure. So the day finally came that he was to be born..January 16 I was to be induced... We were told to be at the hospital by 6 am..we arrive and get all checked in, we were all settled in and ready to get the show on the road. By noon I was in pain, ready for my epidural, but everything was going as planned. Family and friends were there and (after the epidural :) ) it was like having a party. Well, by 9 that night I had not progressed as the dr. would of liked, so they told me that Tyler was turned face up and as he came down he turned his head...he was stuck ...so he suggested a c-section...I begged him please no...so he told me the nurses would turn me from side to side for 15 minutes and he would come back to see where we were...well that went on for another 45 minutes until he finally told me..its time to have this baby. By this time I was exhausted!! and just ready to have my Tyler..so off to the operating room we went..I must put a WARNING on this next part..not that I plan on getting graphic but this is the part of the story where it begins to get intense...and did not go near as we had planned!!! I started having a hard time breathing almost immediately after they upped my epidural, it was scary...but I tried to stay as calm as I could. They finally bring Warren into the room and he sat by my head, he was great,he kept me calm. The dr. pinches my stomach and I just about jump off the table..I felt it?? wait I have an epidural how did I feel it?? well, they are not sure but they tell me hang in there let them get the baby out and they will give me something as soon as the baby is out. What?? you mean I am going to feel this?? YES...I felt it all...cold tools, everything..Warren is the only reason i stayed as calm as I did....he was my rock!! I remember praying with him..I remember him telling me it is almost over...that I was doing great..him rubbing my hair and face telling me to breathe and to know if he could do it for me he would. Now this is the part of the story that him and I defer on...haha I know right! I remember them showing me Tyler over the curtain..and my first thought was he looked like my papaw that had passed away...and it made me smile...then I was asleep..they gave me some good stuff!! oh the relief I can not even explain. Warren watched them clean him up and hand him over to him..he says he walked to me and that I talked to him and Tyler...I don't remember that part, in fact I don't remember anything till I am back in a room, and Warren walks in WITHOUT Tyler!! I know this post is long and if you are still reading..thank you..I am not going to finish the story today but I will leave you with the intro to Tyler's speech..remember this part has been told to me, I did not live this part you see I was still out cold in the operating room... The dad beamed with pride as he carried his new born son out of the operating room and into the hallway to meet his family for the first time. After grandparents, aunts and uncles got a good look at the little one and pictures had been taken the dad took the baby to the hospital nursery to get weighed and cleaned up the family looked through the nursery windows and watched the nurses start to clean the baby up and then they did something very strange they closed the shades on the window so that no one could see in. The family thought that was odd but did not really think much about it, until the Dr. came around the corner and asked to speak to the father. The dr. lead the father to a small room where he sat him down and told him that the baby was to be transferred by ambulance to the NICU at a bigger hospital about an hour down the road. The Dr. went on to say that the new baby had a small hole in his back and that he would need more testing done, the Dr. also said that they were afraid the baby had spina bifida and that he was going to paralyzed and in a wheel chair if not completely bed ridden. The father thought to himself how did this day that had started out so joyous and happy suddenly turn into a night full of questions and worries? Even though the young father was scared for his new baby, he was positive that his son would be ok, he knew that no matter what he loved his son, he had faith that everything would be ok, and he was very thankful to God for this blessing. to be continued....

Snow daze...a little bit of this and a little bit of that...

Well the kiddos are out of school again tomorrow. As of tomorrow we have used all of our snow days for this year. This is the most snow I have seen in one winter since we have lived in TN. It is beautiful and the kids are enjoying it. I have enjoyed it but must admit that I am ready for spring...ready for warmer temperatures...sunny days....being able to have my windows open...everything that comes along with spring..even a good loud thunder storm...bring it on I am ready!!! EK has decided she is not going to play soccer or softball this spring she has decided she is going to try gymnastics!! so tomorrow is her first class...she is so excited!! She keeps reminding me that she needs to be there by 4:30!! She is sooo ready for class, I am excited to see how she likes it. Hopefully I will have pictures to post soon... Well we have had a very busy weekend and the guru did not have time to look at the jump rope video (hopefully this week)...we have been helping my sister and her husband paint and pull off boarder in their new house...they have painted every room in the new house...it was a big job but I must admit it looks really good!! I am having a blast and lots of fun with the kiddos during these snow days but I am beginning to feel a little snow dazed!!!! Bring on the sun, and the warmth!!

Busy Jumping Rope....among other things!!!

Tyler is on the jump rope team at his school. All year long they have been practicing on Tuesday and Thursday 45 min before school starts. I have never once had to get him up and moving on Tuesdays or Thursdays..he hops right out of bed and is ready to go. He loves the coach Mrs. Bailey and he enjoys the whole team. These last few weeks he has been really busy with the jump rope team, he has performed at two different high schools during halftime of the boys basketball games, he has done a PTA performance at his school, and even got out of school to go perform at 2 different elementary schools. He is wore out but totally loving it. WE love to watch him perform at anything he does...and right now he is a busy little guy. On top of this and regular school he is doing Bible reading at church, he is working on a speech (with a lot of help from mom) for Lads 2 Leaders, also for Lads 2 Leaders he is learning song leading, and he is on a puppet team. He is also playing basketball, and soccer is starting up soon!!

This is just one little snip-it of his team at the performance at Columbia Academy where I coach volleyball...it was not their best performance but it was the best crowd they have performed for yet..they were yelling and cheering for them and it was just a great atmosphere! He was very nervous about this performance because of knowing so many kids but he did well, and had a great time! By the way if you have a hard time finding him he is the kid with the bouncy hair..lol gotta love that hair!!

ok..I will have to get the computer guru to get the video to work..bc it worked before I published it but now it is not showing...so well I will have to get him right on that..bc it is a great little video...so stay tuned!!!

Who Knew???

So I was having a hard time sleeping last night so I thought I would get on my blog and read all my back post...it was really interesting to me. Let me explain what I mean...first off I had forgotten some of what I had wrote..especially when it came to stuff the kiddos had said or done. It was great going down memory lane. I realized last night that I have done a very poor job over the last year in keeping up with this blog and when I do post it is just an overview of what is really going on in our lives. After rereading post last night I realize that if no one ever reads or sees this blog again I don't care...but what I do care about is this... I loved the "scrapbook of post" and have decided that I am going to do a better job at blogging. Who knew???that rereading old post would kick my rear in gear to keep up the blogging....I think in a few years the kiddos will love to read it and see what all we did and how proud I am of them.