PANIC ATTACK...

FIRST OFF THIS BLOG IS KILLING ME NOT ALLOWING ME TO SPACE THIS POST...SO SORRY!!!! I KNOW IT IS HARD TO READ ALL PUSHED TOGETHER... SO let me give you a little back ground on me and emergency vehicles... One Sunday after church before Warren and had kids ( I had just had my second miscarriage) we were on our to lunch with his family. As we pulled onto one of the main roads here in town we were met with an ambulance, we pulled over and got out of it's way. A few yards later another ambulance came flying up behind us and we got of it's way. At this point we could see that there was a really bad wreck up ahead. I can not explain it, but even from to far away I knew that it was bad and that it was someone I loved. As we got closer I saw that there was green mini van....and my heart jumped into my throat. Warren says I sounded possessed as I said " that's my family" he then reassured me that there are many a green mini vans and not to jump to the worst possible scenario first. I told him in my possessed manor, "pull over that is MY FAMILY!!" He pulls over, and I jump out of the car, and run to the scene, and what I see is my 2 littlest sisters laying on the ground really far from the vehicle. My mom and dad are with the youngest and the one that flew out of the vehicle the furthest, and I can tell the emergency people were working on her. I found my sister that is closest to me in age bent over holding my other sisters hand that had also flown out the window and landed right by the vehicle. I just kinda stood there, in disbelief. I looked for my brother and saw him standing on the side of the road with some friends of my parents. He looked ok, so I went to be with my two sisters...the other was being loaded into the ambulance to be transported to the life flight pad. I will blog more about this story another time because trust me when I say there is a lot to it and well I don't want to rush it. So yesterday when I topped the hill to get to the kids school and saw 3 firetrucks, lots of police, and an ambulance, what I had could not be described as a panic attack but more of a complete and utter freak out! I called Warren at work and well couldn't breathe, couldn't talk, and all I could manage to say was firetrucks kids school emergency. He again the voice of calm said, "do not worry if it was bad we would know about it" he reminded me to breathe, and stay calm. Let's just say I tried, I sat there in car rider line wondering what was happening if the kids were safe, if anyone had been hurt, the concerns and questions just kept rolling on in my mind. I then called one of my friends that has children at that school and figured she was in car rider line and that maybe we could comfort each other, but she had a funny feeling before the storm and had signed her kids out early, so she was home unaware of what was happening. Her husband is a cop here in town so I guess she could hear the terror and panic in my voice and she told me she would call him and get right back to me. That is when I found out everyone was safe and it was just the roof that had blown off..really?? did I just write it was JUST the roof?? It took me over an hour to get to my kids and they were fine, EK was shook up and said she wanted me but said a prayer while the loud noises were happening to keep her safe and calm till momma could get there, and Tyler said he was not scared but he sure had that yea soo glad momma is here look when I finally got to him! They left there backpacks, coats, everything but what they had with them when the storm hit...after we got home and settled a bit Tyler ( have I ever told you he is just like his daddy)says "at least no homework tonight momma." I don't have any pictures to show you but am trying to get some. 4 classrooms are pretty much destroyed, and the whole hallway that those are on sustained some pretty good damage. The school did a great job at keeping the kids safe, they had a plan they worked their plan and it paid off with no one getting hurt, and yes it was JUST a roof....it can be fixed, and it can be replaced. I hugged my kids tighter last night, and if I never ever see emergency vehicles at the school again it will be ok with me...