Attitude adjustment...who me??

Every had those days or weeks where you look back at something you said or did and think... " WOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME??" Well, I had a moment of that earlier this week. My sweet Tyler talked to me in a not so pleasant tone and attitude and I quickly informed him, that is not how we speak to our mother..or anyone else for that matter!! He quickly replied oh sorry! and then he gave me that look...(you know the look)...that says "oh really you do it to me all the time" at first I could not believe my eyes...but then it hit me square in the face (and yes it hurt!) I do, I do it all the time, not even realizing I do it. So, I am giving myself an attitude adjustment and trying so hard to talk and be nicer to the ones I love so dearly. Why is it that we are always harder on the ones we love...I am not sure why? or how? I let it get so bad and why someone has not told me sooner that I needed an adjustment..but seeing my child do it and then "the look" he gave me I realized that it is out of control. I am working on our ladies retreat for church and our theme this year is "reflection" and let me tell you my reflection needs alot of work right now! The reflection I saw coming back at me from my sweet 7 yr old is proof enough for me!!!

Introducing the talented....

It always amazes what talents some have....I just had to show these pictures off!!! First off I know her hair is not combed and it is still wet..she had just stepped out of the pool (we were not planning on getting her picture taken) I have to brag on my friend Jessica Morgan...she has only been taken pictures a little over a year and I have to say that everything I have seen her do I love!!! If you get a minute check out her website http://www.jessicamorganphoto.com To me it so funny, I usually nit pick a photo to death...but with these it does not even distract me that her hair is wet and uncombed and she is in her bathing suit...all I see is eyes and a beautiful face!!! I can not wait to get my kids to her for a real "photo shoot"...she is truly talented!!!

Let the fun begin..

Ok, so both kiddos are now at school (I did better today..I am hoping that this will help take my mind off the fact that I no longer have any babies...) and I have decided that our house is going to get a make over. We are wanting to sell it hopefully this fall and start building our dream house. (we have been dreaming this dream for quite a few years now, but it may be just around the corner) We are working with very little budget if any..so everything has to be done by us...or should I say me! I am so ok with this..I have now decided that this is my job!! I am not just a house wife (not that there is anything wrong with that..) I am going to go room by room and reorganize, paint, and do just about anything and everything to make it look bigger and ready to sell!! We have been saving for a little while now and are almost ready to get some new floors down..I am so thrilled, I just hope that we can get it done fast enough that we can enjoy them alittle before we sell. I will be pulling up the carpet, painting, landscaping, and just about anything else you can think of to get this house ready. We have lived here for 9 years...sooo I sure do have my work cut out for me...so let the fun begin!!

Watch out world here she comes...

Well, I did it...crying like a baby, I did it. I stood on the porch and watched my baby go off to her first full day of Kindergarten. Warren takes the kids to school on his way to work so after the pictures were taken, kisses and hugs all around, and my every present "we know how to behave and be polite, have a good day make lots of friends, remember to say yes ma'am, no ma'am...I will pick you up have a great day! I love you" Off they went to daddy's car, while I stood on the porch ALONE. Warren did the same thing with Tyler, he walked her in and to her classroom today but after today she is on her own. I have lots planned for the house and yard since I am now child free all day but right now I can not seem to move...it is so weird after having everyday be about your kids, their breakfast, lunches, baths, reading stories, playing games with, to have nothing not one kid tugging on your leg, and the quiet oh it is way too quiet!!! I know that she will be fine and so will I in a few weeks but right now I feel kinda lost. I know she will do great in school and all but it is so weird they go to kindergarten little and always seem to come out a big kid...so watch out world here she comes..consider yourself warned!!!

I know there are bigger and worse things in life....

I know that my world is so small and that there are others out there that have much bigger problems much more life threatening and life altering things going on. I get that...and I am in no way throwing myself or my family a pity party but sometimes it is nice to just be able to get out our worries and concerns. As a parent you want your child's life to be great, almost perfect if there is such a thing! If you are like me you worry from the moment you find out your expecting and never stop...both of my children were high risk pregnancies and both of them have medical complications. Tyler was born with spina bifda occulta and Emily Klair has a seizure disorder. My worries rank pretty high let me tell you!! I keep a prayer journal and it is amazing to see how much God has blessed us with both of our children. We have had some pretty amazing highs and lows in our lives as parents..if you do not keep a prayer journal I encourage you too, it is great to look over it and see how much you are truly blessed, and how God has answered your prayers. My heart is breaking for my little boy, I know that God is going to take care of him and that it is all going to work out fine, but I am the mom and it is my job to think of everything, good/bad and ugly. Tyler has been having some back pain for about a month now, so I took him to the Dr. 2 weeks ago, the Dr. ordered an x-ray and we got the results back a week ago. He has now been diagnosed with scoliosis, his spine is curving in a S shape, the upper back is going to the right and the lower is going to the left. I know that scoliosis is not life threatening I know that there are worse things he could be diagnosed with, but as his mother that does not fit in my perfect world I had created and imagined for him. I do not want him to hurt! I do not want him to have wear a brace or go through another back surgery...I do not want him to have to suffer at all if continues to curve and he is misshapen...kids can be cruel! We will have a better understanding of what his future looks like in 6 months they are going to take another x-ray and see how fast it is progressing. So for right now we know nothing other then he has it, and we are praying that he does not progress much more if any. I know that people live with this everyday and I have been reading alot about it since finding out about Tyler..so again I know there are much worse things, I also know that God blesses and takes care of all his children, just needed to vent my worries and thoughts! He is such a good boy...he is sweet, absolutely adorable, and such a joy to all around him!! not to mention he is the next David Beckham...I'm the mom so I get to say all of this and know that it's all true!!! I am sooo blessed!!

Trying to lead by example....

Ok so as I type this entry please know that I am one for rules and I even think that this years school uniforms is a great idea. I am all for it!!! My son Tyler has been in school for3 days and so far we are 2 for 2 on not being in the new dress code. I am trying here, I really am! I have taken the rules and guidelines with me shopping I have found what I thought to be "in code" clothes only to find out that they are NOT. On the first day it was my fault completely, I really thought that the shorts I put him in would be ok...I mean they only had a small "fake" pocket on the leg...WRONG the pants can have only 4 pockets. Which mean no cargo, no carpenter pants, or anything that resembles a pocket. OK not a big deal I will just not let him wear those anymore. Then the second day there were a few questions about the jean shorts he wore because they had a tag on the back pocket that was sewn on that was a little over the 2 i/2 inches that it could be...(seriously on that one I did not even know that it had a tag on the pocket..who thinks to look at that??) So as you can see I have had two days that have been very frustrating and not easy to keep my cool. I am trying to show my kids that just because we do not understand every reason or every purpose behind every rule and stipulation we still have to follow them. That it is not always easy and sometimes is not fun at all (especially when it comes to spending more money...ouch) and that we are sometimes suppose to lead others by examples, including the way we dress, the way we handle situations, and the way we obey rules and laws. It is funny that I am trying to explain this to my 7 yr old when I have been struggling with it myself , on matters bigger then the dress code at school, but about my relationship with the Lord. Tyler got in the car yesterday and the 1st thing he said was "I do not like this dress code thing at all, it is kinda dumb mom" I told him that it may seem that way to him, but that there are good reasons that they are doing this and that we will just have to try harder to get "in code", and that it will all work out. He replied with a " I wish they would hurry up and tell me why I have to look like a nerd, to learn at school." I had to turn my head so he would not see me crack a smile and stifle a giggle...because I have to say that as the days go on I too am finding this dress code thing a little dumb!!!

Leaving town...

Well, before the craziness that is school, volleyball, and soccer take over our lives for the next few months we have decided to take one last mini vacation to Kentucky Kingdom this weekend. I am looking forward to a little bit of fun in the sun and some good ole family time!!! Warren and I were talking about the last time we went to KK and what an event it was. It is funny now but at the time not so much... When we went last time the kids ages were Tyler-4 and Emily Klair-2 and we had a ball the second day..the first day however was a little bit stressful. We went with another family and us moms and the kids were going to stay at the water park while the dads went and had a blast riding the rides. Well, we get to the park and the guys being the gentlemen they are agreed to get us settled in before leaving for their fun day, so Warren went to buy swimmer diapers (I forgot ours in the car and we were all to lazy to go back and get them) the older kids were already in the water and the moms went to get there swimsuits on. I pulled out Emmy's swimsuit and told the other dad that when Warren got back here was her suit and that she was staying here...sitting in the chair next to him. Off we went to get our suits on, we get back and there sets Warren and the other dad, the swimsuit still where I left it and NO Emmy Klair. At first I thought they were playing a joke on me..but Warren knew it was not a joke and took off looking for her...we had been gone to the bathroom probably 20 minutes or so by the time we walked there ,waited, changed and walked back. The other mother took off looking for her while me and the other father panicked...we walked in the same small circle over and over and could not get it together. I was told to go tell a lifeguard that this happens all the time and they would radio her description and they would tell us what to do next...I could not move from my spot. It was the most terrified I have ever been. What had happened was she got up to follow us as we walked away and the other dad thought I had changed my mind and was taking her with me, I never knew she had gotten up and was following me, so her little legs did not keep up with us as we walked. So she lost us about halfway and just stood there,(I never heard if she was crying or not and I think it best if I do not know what she was doing/or how scared she probably looked) luckily she is so cute that a teenage girl and her boyfriend saw her just standing there and they watched her. When they realized that she was by herself they picked her up and took her to a security person. I can not express how much love I have for this person that I never met or will never get a chance to thank. Warren finally got to a lifeguard, and we found out that she was in the lost and found at the park. So Warren sprinted(I have not seen him move that fast in a very long time and do not think I have seen it since)and collected our lost item. Our daughter!!! We both know how blessed we are, and it has now become this story that we share and laugh about. From this story we have learned alot though, 1st Always know what your child is wearing (most moms do but dad do not really pay attention when it comes to the detail and they need to in case the mom freezes up like I did..) 2nd When leaving your child with someone other then your spouse make sure that your child really understands what they are to do..and always look behind you as you leave to make sure that they are not following you... 3rd Have a plan for everything...I doubt it would have made a difference in how I acted but I would like to think that it would have...I mean I did nothing but walk in a small circle saying over and over "she is gone she is gone, someone has her, she is gone" crying hysterical and not helping matters at all!! It all turned out ok and we are so blessed that it did, we laugh about it now and talk about it like it was not a big deal but I for one know that day took about 10 years off of my life....so please pray that this weekend is very uneventful!!!!